2014 Promises to be worse than 2013

Sorry, but bad news just keeps coming. Was rushed to the hospital again, spinal degeneration has gotten a lot worse and doctors say just live with it, plus now developing hip and knee problems, legs randomly go out from under me and it feels like I was tased in the hips. We're in the middle of a 2.5 day blizzard as I type. Unfortunately I cannot shovel which is obvious. Unless I can find someone to dig my car out of the driveway it will be there until Spring. Also ever since I was a kid I have had a horrid dread of approaching snowstorms. I think it has to be in part due to I have never had any friends or family, the feeling of total isolation and being trapped, etc etc. This drives my already unstable blood pressure to catastrophic (as the doctors put it) levels; like yesterday I kept rising and rising despite B/P and anxiety meds I'm on to 260/127. I was about to call the emergency doctor on call when It began dropping, eventually dropping to dangerous low levels 80/37 pulse 40. I used to get a lot of stress relief by masturbating, once or twice a week worked fine. I have not had sex with another person in decades. A few well meaning? people explained why, "you have to admit you are one of the most unattractive people I have ever seen, dude you're just f.ing butt ugly inside and out." Well anyway God has stepped in to punish whenever I have the urge to indulge in that sin of the flesh. Due to spinal nerve damage and B/P meds I cannot ejaculate, so no release of tension, bu...
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