When it's all over

There is something about sunshine and open spaces that lights the fuse in little children. They're off and running before you can even shout a warning. It's infectious, it's beautiful, it's a picture of that full joy many of us spend our entire adulthoods trying to rediscover.Yet, even in the darkness of persistent depression, you get days like this every once in a while. Today is one for me. I am too exhausted and drained from a heart incident yesterday that landed me in the ER - I can't jump for joy. But my soul is!In the ER, they ran a chest x-ray to check on my pacemaker. You know those 30+ nodules they found last time, that they thought were cancer? They are GONE. Without a trace. It's not cancer!The theory is that these spots on the previous x-ray were pockets of infection that came along with my pneumonia.Thank you for your support through this "waiting game". So glad the wait is over and we can get back to normal - work, school, play, mining every day for nuggets of joy.Feeling my way through the darknessGuided by a beating heartI can't tell where the journey will endBut I know where to startThey tell me I'm too young to understandThey say I'm caught up in a dreamWell life will pass me by if I don't open up my eyesWell that's fine by meSo wake me up when it's all overWhen I'm wiser and I'm olderAll this time I was finding myselfAnd I didn't know I was lostI tried carrying the weight of the worldBut I only have two handsHope I get the chance to travel the worldBut I do...
Source: Turquoise Gates - Category: Cancer Tags: good news POTS remission Fainting cancer scare 5 minute Friday hope imperfect prose Source Type: blogs