View from the 11th Year

This year we've put it to the test-'til death do us part-Whispered an ugly word we vowed we never would.I can't help changinglife forces you toand you are just hanging on for the ride.You say you love memore today than yesterdaythe ordinary with me eclipses our wedding day.I have founderedin the sea of discontentI have been looking for my wings for years now.You plod onand keep us all afloatLife raft on the ocean of depression.Even when you can'thaul me out of the sloughYou hold my hand as I struggle in the mud.Your eyes are sadderthan they were back thenYour back is bowed from the load you carry.But when we meetoutside the sorrowSteal moments, let our bodies converse together,Your smile is still truesoul's light not extinguishedyou warm me with your pulsing lifeand I am utterly undone by grace.I thought I was walkingin a different directionTurns out we're on parallel tracksThough each new pledgeis painfully tentativeyou call it enough, and gather me to you.I'm no longer dreamingof our old agejust the next day together, and the next.I heard somewherethat the first 10 years were hardest.I heard somewherethat the odds are stacked against us.I heard somewherethis problem we face is insurmountable.But I am not listeningto the prophecies of menI am not listeningto slackers and cynicsI am not listeningto the doubt in my own heart.It wouldn't be preciousif it wasn't difficultAnd if you only stay while you're happy?Didn't we promisefor better, for worse?We've worn out togetherand we'...

Source: Turquoise Gates - September 6, 2013 Category: Cancer Tags: anniversary marriage trouble letters to Aaron a husbands love temptation marriage letters poetry Source Type: blogs