Women Are Not Different

I am one of the many women that has been restored to sanity through the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous. I began drinking at the age of 17 years, and found alcohol to be a wonderful stimulant which enabled me to feel relaxed in any given situation. Whether alone, or in a crowd, I have always felt inwardly isolated from people and alcohol managed to break down this barrier, for brief periods of time. Being restless by nature, I searched always for the excitements that life could bring and alcohol was always my companion. But Alcohol was a temporary solution to my problem. Since coming to AA in January 74, I’ve learned that my problem is alcoholism. Also, that alcoholism is in the person, and not in the bottle. I drank for 20 years before stumbling through the doors of AA, mentally, physically and spiritually bankrupt. Alcohol had become a depressant rather than a stimulant. I became a social outcast through my change of personality, which caused fits of violence and deep depression. Laughter and happiness had long since passed in their place were feelings of utter despair and bottomless loneliness. Through alcoholism I built a wall around me, which shut me away from the realities of life and I proceeded to live in a world of fantasy. I was a stranger and nonentity in my own home. I knew I was surely going insane through my obsession for alcohol. Fortunately for me, I had a moment of truth and I rang A.A. I admitted and accepted myself as being an alcoholic. I knew that the ...
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