What Is Wrong With Me....

I'm not doing well.  I'm not quite sure what happened, but maybe it has something to do with dropping out of school and planning to enroll in a school that was closer only to go to the doctor and decide to have surgery and skip a quarter.  But now I'm not getting a call back as to a surgery date and my life is up in the air with no purpose, meaning, nothing to look forward to, I'm currently not aspiring to do or be anything.Today I needed to leave the house for two reasons:  I had a grooming appointment for my dog, and we need groceries.  I managed to do neither.  I rescheduled the appointment and I'll figure something out for dinner, I'm not sure what.  I just don't think I can bring myself to be around strangers right now - I mean if there was an emergency or I had to go to work or school, yes, I would do it, if there was a responsibility that had to be done but - it really is such a cruel world and I feel like people are constantly judging me - whether they really are or not, I don't know.  I'm always worried about what people think about me and I'm afraid I don't think much of myself so I don't expect others to think much of me either.  I'm pretty disappointed in myself, what I've become, where I am in life.  I live in a nice house and have nice things because of my husband's achievements, but not mine.  I feel like a loser, I'm no different than some kid who dropped out of college and is living with his parents without a ...
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