Cut Out Another Person!

I realize I don't let people into my life.  I don't tell them anything personal about myself.  No friends or family know I'm bipolar.  No friends or family know I'm having a hysterectomy.  They know hardships from a over a decade ago, but maybe since I was hospitalized in 2001, and I can't think of any other reason or when it started exactly, I've kept everything that was difficult to myself.  Maybe that's hindered my ability to connect with people on a deep friendship level, not divulging current personal struggles or pain.  I just feel I have so many secrets that people wouldn't understand, they haven't been through, I don't want them to know, I don't want to talk about.But with people in the past, people who do know how hard I struggled, how hard I once had it, I've absolutely had it.  And yes, this totally may have everything to do with my having a lot of time on my hands and too much time to think.  But this woman that took me in when I was 16 and not living in a good situation until she booted me when I was 18 is being very rude.  Mark can not stand her, she has a difficult personality, but I feel obligated to stay in touch with her and be kind to her because she did take me in and get me away from a bad home.So...I remember all of these things she said to me when I was a teenager that weren't kind that I didn't realize were bizarre at the time, and now it's like she's just lying to me.  I keep trying to email her, and w...
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