I promised I ’d post on things other than aging...

10 HONEST THOUGHTS ON BEING LOVED BY A SKINNY BOY ~ Rachel Wiley1.I say, ‘I am fat.’He says ‘No, you are beautiful.’I wonder why I cannot be both.He kisses me  hard.2.My college theater professor once told methat despite my talent,I would never be cast as a romantic lead.We do plays that involve singing animalsand children with the ability to fly,but apparently no onehas enough willing suspension of disbeliefto go with anyone loving a fat girl.I daydream regularlyabout f.ing my boyfriend vigorously on his front lawn.3.On the mornings I do not feel pretty,while he is still asleep,I sit on the floor and check the pockets of his skinny jeans for motive,for a punchline,for other girls ’ phone numbers.4.When we hold hands in public,  I wonder if he notices the looks —like he is handling a parade balloon on a crowded sidewalk;if he notices that my hands are now made of rope.  5.Dear Cosmo: F. you.I will not take sex tips from youon how to please a man you think I do not deserve.6.He tells me he loves me with the lights on.7.I can cup his hip bone in my hand,feel his ribs without pressing very hard at all.He does not believe me when I tell him he is beautiful.  Sometimes I fear the day he does will be the day he leaves.  8.The cute hipster girl at the coffee shop  assumes we are just friendsand flirts over the counter.I spend the next two weeksmentally replacing myself with herin all of our photographs.When I admit this to himwe spend the evening taking new photos ...
Source: Jung At Heart - Category: Psychiatry & Psychology Source Type: blogs