It ' s a Start to Catching Up

There have been so many things to process that I have not wanted to that I have avoided not writing. As I write, it forces me to really think about what I am writing, to process it in order to put it into words and there have been times when it has been difficult and painful, although incredibly insightful.On Easter, I found out that my grandma on my dad ' s side had gone into a sort of coma. I am not clear exactly on the details although they were explained to me in a second hand way to my two non medical aunts who tried to repeat what they thought they were told and remembered. It was also told to me delicately, they tried to repeat the name of the medical condition and who knows what they said, but it is all good, I understand enough.But what was happening was extremely difficult for me. My grandma was 95 years old, she ' d had failing kidneys for years and had a DNR (Do Not Resuscitate). When she could not eat or drink for herself, her wishes were that she not be fed or I guess even be given a liquid drip. She was given a drip of pain medication that I was told kept her extremely peaceful, or at least looking peaceful. She was like that from Easter Sunday until Friday and honestly I was a mess. I could not stop thinking about her not being fed or getting any liquids, basically being starved and dehydrating to death. No matter what anyone says, how can someone know if she suffered just because she had pain medication?So many cal...
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