4/2/18: Amending the Rule

I find myself completely alone (naturally).Andrea has blocked me from her phone, because I told her more than once to stop bringing up anything financial when it comes to my divorce.  She ACTUALLY told me once that she did not believe in alimony for ANY woman.  THIS time she, out of the blue, asked if I had considered that not filing tax forms jointly would come out of the marital property.  How many times do I have to tell her?  Once again, I told her to stay out and yes, in harsh words.  She told me to never text her again.  I have tried to text and call since last week - seems she has blocked me.  So much for unconditional love.Then there is Blake.  I have been thinking about him.  Am I being used in a way?  Is he thinking that I can fulfill the parts of his wife that he is is missing because she is sick, yet of course stay married to her because he does love her very much and...there is no way he can leave her nor would I or could I ever let him.If I were to be with someone right now, I deserve someone who would make ME their priority.  I am not going to say that Blake has not been incredibly kind and helpful.Yet - am I being used for what he has been missing?  Companionship?  He has said that he has been lonely.Actually, both hurt quite a bit, both Andrea and Blake.  Yes, Blake has worked really, really hard to help me heal, help me get better, anything my therapist says, gives me excellent advice.We a...

Source: bipolar.and.me - August 8, 2018 Category: Psychiatry Source Type: blogs