1am and flustered! Applying 2015 with little hope but much determination

Hey, I've always had a passion for medicine, decided that to do it at undergrad just wasn't a fit for me, I was shy, and not focused enough, and hated my chem teacher. I went to uni, got a 2.1 in biomed degree, then have gone on to do a PhD, all the time convincing myself I don't need to do medicine. Anyway coming to the end of my PhD and its all still there, the want to do med. But only in the last month have I really become set on this being my path, I just can't pretend I don't want to try anymore. So this year I'm going to apply to Warwick, with the ukcat. Obviously narrowing my options to one isn't particularly helpful for me but the best I can do this year taking into consideration a level grades and no gamsat entry! I'm still freaking out about being 25/26 and starting medicine, this isn't the oldest I know, but I'm still scared about everyone moving on with their lives/having babies/buying houses whilst I still live off next to nothing. But the internal storm in me says this doesn't matter- doesn't stop me having a paddy about it. I guess im not holding out too much hope for entry this year, with only a little bit of work exp currently (although loads lined up after UCAS entries before interviews bummer!) but I've got a very good knowledge of whats expected as a doctor & healthcare advisor due to close relations and several friends being at various stages in their med career so I feel I could talk about it a lot more than in my PS. Suppose I'm writing here just t...
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