Runaway Train

I wish I knew how the on/off trigger worked in my mind, where I can be completely fine one moment, and suddenly a feeling of...despair? washes over me in less than a minute and completely and absolutely changes my outlook. Why? How? It can ' t be normal, right? If it were, people would talk about it, there would be a name for it. People would be on the phone and say - oh, " nameofphenomenon " just hit me, feeling really bad, talk to you later. " RIGHT? There would be a slang term for it in urbandictionary.I have been working so, so, so hard this week, trying to finish the last of my wreath orders that are late. I have mostly been working on the 13 large boxwood wreaths and am mostly done. I have worked all day, stayed up all night then worked the entire next day when I returned home from Thanksgiving. Since then, I have been working hard, nonstop, every day.My fingers! They have the top layer of skin peeled from my each of my fingertips, bloody hangnails, small blisters where parts of my fingers have continually rubbed some part of a tool over and over. The worst is what I assume is a small but deep cut on the end of my left index fingertip. I have bandaids on the ends of every finger that keep fraying as I continue to work with them. Even typing now is not easy but at least not painful with the bandaids.I was so excited to start decorating for Christmas. My creativity had really kicked in and I had all sor...

Source: bipolar.and.me - December 2, 2016 Category: Psychiatry Source Type: blogs