Too Much Latuda = Weird Suicidal Thoughts

When I went to my psychiatrist last week, I told her about my strange thoughts. I was thinking a lot about suicide, but the thoughts seemed to have started not in my mind, but somehow outside of my mind, as a color. I found it hard to describe and probably went on a bit too much trying to describe it as best I could but it really was strange.I used to think in music, for a very long time. For someone who thinks in numbers or has never thought about how they think besides an internal conversation - if there is one or they are aware of one, I often wonder what goes through their mind - how do they think? Like I said, for me, for years and years, it was always music. That was so tiringly overly emotional. I would wake up with a song in my head for no apparent reason and it would last for days on end. I have blogged way too much about it. But now I think in colors. It is too hard to explain, or maybe I do not have the energy right now to explain.Anyway! Two weeks before that appointment, she had increased my Latuda from 40 (mg?) to 60. I would have to get up and see if the measurement is in mg but surely it is. After describing the beginning of the thoughts, she said what I described, the thoughts coming from outside of myself, as being the warning signs of what is described when anti-depressants are labelled " may cause suicidal thoughts " , or whatever that warning is. Yes, of course I have heard about teenagers having...
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