Let's Start Talking!!

Although I am not exactly heavily pushing, I find it extremely difficult to start a conversation about suicide.  For my age group, it is the number one cause of death.  To me, that says that everyone must know of someone that has committed suicide.  Yet no one wants to talk about it?  Why?It is scary, but I am slowly becoming more open about my illness.  I haven't really said that I am. bipolar and do not feel much guilt about that.  My psychiatrist tells me quite often I am "mildly bipolar". Don't get me wrong - I am not in denial or saying I do not have it, I do.  And I need to have a diagnosis to explain when I do have my hypomania symptoms.  But I do know what she is saying.  I have those awful, horrible bipolar depressions that begin the process in my mind of the way I want to die and become obsessed with searching the internet over ways that will not be painful (I actually have had a plan chosen since being suicidal in 2001), but when I am manic...it's hypomania, I recognize it pretty quickly - within a few hours and it does not last long.  There is typically a lot of time between them - a year maybe?  If that is true, then I am overdue for one.  I hope the next one is a happy one. I usually get the irrationally irritated mania, and I am just barely rational enough to know to stay away from social media, sending emails, etc.  But it does not matter which I get, the outcome will be the same.  Immediate...
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