Sometimes You Gotta Go with Logic
I had something completely different in mind that I wanted to write about, but now I can't do it. I have to get this out, try to figure it out, vent so that hopefully I will feel better. I absolutely do not understand why I feel the way I do, but I know I have felt it for the exact same reason years ago.I have been thinking a lot about how the anger, if that is what it is, feels, and if it is actually anger. I know that what I feel is completely different than when my husband and I argue or have a fight. It is different than when someone on the news offends me, or when I saw the child at Wal-Mart being abused. It feels like none of that, and all are all pretty clear cut examples, for me, of anger.So if that is anger, what do I feel? AM I hypomanic? It does not seem like it. If Tara would simply STOP SENDING MESSAGES through Facebook I would go back to being more like when I woke up this morning and felt better. A bit ago I blocked her on Facebook, and I have no idea why I felt so obligated to not hurting her, but I sent her a message that I was upset and simply needed time and space, so not to take blocking her the wrong way. But duh - how else could you take it. Thing is - she will believe me, but she can not seem to LEAVE ME THE HELL ALONE today!Yes, I have asked her, I have told her, I have aggressively and firmly demanded her to stop messaging me, pleading with her to leave me alone. No, I have not si...
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